Just a little poetic ramble about life as mom, not working and trying to stay grounded through prayer and meditation…
Maintaining Stillness in Time
As the clock tics busy like the bee,
I want to join in it’s syncopated paragon.
I want to compete with time
and win the race
Thoughts scramble to control my decisions
As the minutes pass
I practice counting my breaths
until I forget about the counting
and focus on the sensations of breath.
The cool inhale within my nostrils
The diaphragm expanding
The warm sensation as I breath my mouth
My lips becoming slightly chapped
I am tempted to lick them but I know that will only provide momentary relief, so I remain still.
I should be cleaning…
I should be working on resume…
I should call…
Let go of the “I shoulds…”
Let go of the “I, me, myself…” Shed the ego that confines you…
Finally, I quiet my thoughts for just long enough to receive the blessings of the universe…
The awareness of truth, light & beauty in stillness comes back…
I have finally emptied my mind just enough to let God back in.
My freedom. My salvation. My Surrender to God’s TIME has paid off. I sat still and he listened. I prayed and he came. I relinquished control, and he provided comfort and relief. Thank you God, the universe and all higher spirits everywhere for showing me how to sit and be still.
Here is a quote I have on my mirror to remind me:
“Don’t just do something, sit there!”